So i have been asked to create a specific blog about a story i wrote so im going to post it because it was requested by my amazing best friend amanda so here is the story.with that being said i would also like to know everyones thought’s about it :)
The Dark Girl <3
The girl who was once happy. Who once believe everything was good and nothing bad happened. Who did anything for anyone gladly. till she was left neglected and alone.So she saddened. Everyone she turned to walked away from her everyone she loves they were all suddenly gone. Why is it that this girl that was once so happy turned into this dark child who wanted death for every single thing she touch, saw and felt. she wanted nothing to do with happiness. She wanted nothing to do with light. she wanted nothing to do with good. And worst of all she wanted nothing to do with love. who or what could turn this dark child that was once so good into this girl who hates and despises everything in the world except for darkness
Was it because she was left alone in the darkness and that’s all she could turn to? Was it because being alone in the darkness gave her that little bit of sanity and serenity? I will tell you the whole story. it was her family. it was her friends. it was her boyfriend. it was every single person she loved and gave her heart to. and what killed her the most is that she gave her heart to them and they threw it out, they spit on it and they stomped on it.
Her family was so over protective with her it drove her insane. They suffocated her to the point where she wanted to committee suicide. They wanted her home all the time it was a prison. the only time she was allowed out was when she was in school and I surprised they even did that. They wanted to home school this child. but if that was to happen she would’ve really killed her self. I felt bad for this girl because she was shouting out for help at the top of her lungs but no one could hear her. Its like they looked at this girl and saw absolutely nothing. But what they wanted to see. And that was a girl that needs to be kept hostage. Needed to be held prisoner. she needed to live by there rules or live at all.
Some family right? What type of family does that? the type of family that doesn’t no what they are doing because by suffocating her the way they are they are just pushing her more and more into wanting to do the bad things and into the bad direction.
As for her friends she always tried to be nice to them and get them to understand that she would have there backs no matter what but it seemed like her friends only used her. for money for the looks and more. But some of her friends helped her. But she thought what was the point of having friends if they don’t understand what you’re going through. she new that if she told them what type of person she was or what she was going through .her friends where just going to judge her and tell her that it will be okay. but she knew that it wasn’t going to be okay and that it never will be okay.
ALL SHE WANTED WAS SOMEBODY TO CONFIDE IN AND LOVE HER!!!!!
As for her boyfriend. He hurt her the most. When she finally thought she found someone who understood what she was going through and she could confide in and that loved her. he hurt her the worst out of them all. he did what the rest of them did when she gave him her heart he threw it out. he hurt her the worst with his false words. he told her he loved her but yet he broke her heart Over and over again. The thing with her boyfriend was that once he got tired of her he left her and got something else and when that was as good as her he went back to her. She was his REBOUND GIRL. and she was so in love with the fact that he was “the one” who she could confide in and the one that would love her no matter what she was to blind to see the damage he was doing to her. he was the reason she stopped asking why cant nobody love me. he was the reason she stopped cutting her self-he was the reason she stopped throwing up after looking at her self in the mirror with disgust. He was the reason she wanted to live. Before she found him she wanted to die so badly but he gave her hope. Well he gave her false hope. What he gave her was more pain than she had ever felt before in her life. it was so sad that this girl thought she found her everything and what she needed but it was all a lie and this boy was just playing with her emotions. I’ll this day this girl is to blind to see what he is doing to her. but can you blame the girl if she really loves him. can you blame the girl if she loves him so much that she will hold the pain in. NO YOU CAN’T. Because when you love someone you go through it all. you go through the pain, the love, the lies, the hurt, and the disappointments. so now do you understand why this girl is dark? do you understand why she loves the hurt? do you understand why the way she is?
NO ,well let me break it down so you can understand a little bit more better …
THE LIFE OF SERENITY …
- - -serenity had much love from here parents.its true what people say children and parents love is special.but i dont think people new how special was the love serenitys parents gave to her.serenitys mom Ada always loved her daughter but never had the time to show her how much she loved because she was to busy with “work”.she worked as an accountant for some banks and big time companies and when she wasnt working she was having an affair with her co workers.
- - -she had friend even though she was a misunderstood girl she had alot of friends i guess they “looked passed it”she was pretty messed up in the head. now we all know these people were not just her friends because they felt like being nice right. hahaha WRONG it was no suprise to the school that she was financial fit rin other words had alot of money since her father died in his will he gave everything to his daughter.so everyone wanted to be her friend she was friend with everyone and she had one specific best friend named kathy and she spent as much money on kathy as she wanted.anything kathy wanted serenity would buy it for her.so they were best friend and everything and serenity decided to tell kathy about her life and what happened between her family and her , so serenity told kathy and kathy said “your secret is safe with me i will never tell nobody i promise”
- - -so serenity was a lost soul maybe but when she wasnt lost and she felt so found and in place it was all fake.her boyfriend named aron would always wait for her always be there for here always defend her he would always love her.keep in mind serenity was PURE.he of course knew that.so this would go like the average story she is the weird girl who is misunderstood and he is the pretty boy who trys to make the impossible possible so he took the bet of going out with her and the bet was if he goes out with her he had less then a month to get it in with her,so the month past and they got together and he didnt get it in with her but he lost the bet and he still stood with her.he told her about the bet and she was dissappointed but she was happy cause he told her the truth.so time passes they make a year and she decided that its time for her to lose it.all the cuts on her rist left she was fully healed and she was truly happy so the day came where she lost her purity and that same day they broke up and stood broken up for about a good 2 months he got another girl and he took her V from her and left that girl and came back to serenity.serenity mad up her mind about hating him and never getting back with him but yet when he came back to her she couldnt say no because she loved him and she couldnt believe he would do anything bad to her.
p.s. this girl does have a name her name is serenity.
Written by: Ashley M
then came the day she decided to confront her insecurities and he believed in his lie so much that he denied it and everytime serenity would acuse him of cheating and using her he would get mad so that day she ended up in the hospital they argues she locked her self in the bathroom she told him she was gunna take a bath and it will take a while so he didnt mind she locked her self in the bathroom and she slit her rist to the point where blood was everywhere.with her own blood she wrote on the mirror i love you she wrote on the wall i jsut wanted you to love me YOU HURT ME& YOU USED ME!!! she tried to drown her self in the bath full of water.
so now she is unconsious in the tub,possibly could die but her boyfriend decided to check on her cause he noticed and hour passed by and it was two quiet,
he knocks on the door and no reply
he knocks on the door againand still no reply
so something told him to break down the door and he went with his instinct and broke it down he saw her in a bath full of blood and red and white rose pedals he pulled her out the tub and told her to hold on and that he was sorry for all the pasin he has caused her,he looked at the walls and read what she wrote and started to beg for forgiveness because if anything happened to her he dont know how he would live with him self
he did hurt her but he also loved her with all of his heart,so if she died he might as well have killed him self with her.so he called the ambulance and they go to the hospital he rides with her in the ambulance and he never lets her hand go the whole time.
so they rush her to the emergency room and as soon she is concious he can go and see her but he didnt allow that he was there the whole time holding her hand ti’ll she woke up when she woke up he told her that he loved her with everything and that he was sorry for everything and he regrets it with everything.
and all she could say is that “i hate yuh aron yuh think i love yuh,yuh hurt me yuh used me i was so strong and now im BROKEN!!! how could yuh do this to me i loved yuh and yuh just used me i love yuh with all my heart but i hate yuh with all my hate yuh disgust me go be with her just like yuh left me and went to her do it now and make sure she is worth it because u werent worth it yuh are the biggest mistake of my life and i regret falling for someone as cold hearted as yuh “
then she laughs…and takes a pause and says
“its sad because u will never be happy because yuh missing something inside of yuh u dont have a heart yuh have a whole in yur soul and NO ONE WILL EVER LOVE YUH i can promise yuh this ur a empty cold soul now get out of my sight your dead to me”
he couldnt believe what she said so he walked away in anger and tears and hatred towards him self because he new what she said was true that night he went home
(little did he know after he left she went into acoma)she pushed her self when she told him all of that she used so much hatred she fell into acoma
and toree his house apart he put her picture on his ceiling and stood lying on the floor for days broken ,cold and lost and hurting cause he knew he lost her for good and was never going to get her back.he died looking at her picture
its true love does hurt and love does kill but aron brought it on him self and serenity suffered eternity because of him he had no respect for her,he deserved to die as much as she deserves to get out of acoma.so she is in an endless sleep and he is never going to wake up from his sleep.
*but hey never say never things always change*
so serenity met this kid named aron and they were getting close and kathy tryed to tell serenity he was just using her but serenity believe that kathy was jealous and didnt want her to be happy so serenity ignored kathy and forgot all about her.
kathy didnt like that ,kathy got mad and said to herself”if she can forget about me ill make sure the the whole school remembers her.”
kathy went and told the whole school about what happened to her and her family and how she got raped ,so when serenity went back to schoo every one was talking about her and laughing at her when serenity went up to kathy she said “why is everyone laughing at me”
kathy said”ohh now you know me im not a ghost anymore what happened to your new bestfriend aron?”
serenity said”your my bestfriend you know i would never let anyone take that position “
kathy started to feel guilty for telling everyone about what happened to serenity and her parents and about her being an orphan.so serenity repeated the question and said”why is everyone laughing at me”
kathy finally said”well they are all laughing at you becaus ei told them about your past IM SORRY! serenity i only told them because you were ignoring me for aron i didnt mean to hurt you im sorry”
serenity looked at her with so much hate she couldnt believe it she started to tear and then she said”how could you ! i trusted you ?”serenity runs away from kathy and runs to the school bathroom…she locked her self in a stall and started cutting her self to the max when she came out the stall her hands were full of blood she walked down the hall and everyone starred at her like she was a ghost…and when kathy saw her kathy ran to her and stood in front of her way so when serenity stopped because kathy got in her way serenity said”MOVE!”
kathy said “no ,what did yuh do to urself serenity?”
serenity said”i didnt do nothing this is what yuh did to me …THIS IS WHAT THIS SCHOOL DID TO ME!!”serenity give the blade to kathy and puts it in her hand and says this what you did to me and walks away crying…
kahy turns around and says serenity WAIT…STOP…IM SORRY…
suprisingly serenity did stop not because kathy told her to stop ,serenity stopped because she lost so much blood she passed out…
kathy yells”SOMEODY CALL 911 HELP ME!!! “
then she whispers to serenity”im sorry i never wanted this for you”
serenity gets rushed to the hospital and is diagnoised as DEPRESSED but they didnt understand why and no one ever would …
serenity remained in the hospital getting helped for her depression…
people must remember the word end is in friendship everything good comes to and end eventually and serenity learned it the hard way.
when serenity found this out she was torn because all she could think about was how her father didnt deserve what her mom was doing to him.she resented her mother so much for falling into infedelitys.serenitys view of happiness was completely screwed up she still knew how to love after she saw this.
but she didnt know how to love for long…
serenity was distant from her mother she grew closer and closer to her father because she was distgustied with her actions.so her father nelson was not a dumb guy he was a lawyer he was pretty smart.so nelson always dropped what ever he had to do for his daughter because he believed that family came before work.
so nelson obvously found out about his wifes infedelitys and when he found out he didnt know how to handle it.
nelson left his home that night to drink.so he got drunk and he lost controll of the alcohol.when nelson arrived back at his house he nobody was home except for serenity and she was sleeping.keep in mind the liqouir made him feel lonely and confused and hurt he didnt know what he was doing.nelson went to serenitys room and laid next to her.serenity was a heavy sleeper so she didnt feel him getting onto the bed.so then he started touching her and she felt him and she woke up startled and yelled
“dad what are you doing!”
nelson said”nothing baby just relax”
so nelson continued to touch her and she started to cry and then she tryed pushing him off and was saying”dad stop your hurting me”
he got mad and yelled at her”stay still serenity im not going to hurt you just let me love you im your daddy !!!”
she didnt stop so he hit her …
serenity was petrafied to say anything so she held in her breathe and closed her eyes
nelson continued touching her and touching her and he wasnt satisfied with just touching her he thought in his drunk mind im already in bed with her might as well go all the way.nelson was so drunk he didnt realize he was raping his own daughter.
so when he is done raping his daughter he gets off of her and walks to his room and knocks out on his bed like nothing happened.
and serenity was so scared that even thoo he was done she was still had her eyes closed…
she fell asleep hoping that everything that happened was a dream
but when she woke up the next morning she woke up and her bed sheets had blood all over them and her face was sore she had a bruise.
she started to cry and her mom never came back home so she was alone with her father again…
her father woke up because he heard her crying and he walked to his daughter and saw the blood and went to her and asked her what happened and she was speechless all she could do was cry
the father was so confused so he looked at him self and he saw his hands and pants had blood on them… then he realized wat he did …he asked him self “what did i do” even though he knew what he had done to his daughter.
he was illed with regret and disgust he left he couldnt stand looking at him self
he left his house and he was so angry he while he was driving he was speeding so he got into a car accident…
he didnt make it…
serenity remained in her house she waited for her mom to come home she came the next day serenity never left her bed she stood covered in blood when her mom arrived home she ran to her daughter and held her tighter then everything and she asked her daughter what happened.
serenity told her”what happened was you wasnt here to protect me from my own father that raped me because he was angry at you cheating on him.what happened was you were to busy being a hoe you forgot you had a daughter and a husband what happened was you failed at being a mother what happened was you are a discrase to me”
she got louder and said “what happened was you fucked up my life and you lost your family what happened was i called ACS and ttold them what happened and they are taking me away from you and your going to jail foor neglecting your child and embesling money from you job “
she finally crys says “what happened was you drove your husband to death literally and you took your daughters child away from her”
serenity didnt look at that lady as a mom she looked at her the reason why what happened to her happened.she didnt say good bye mom she said goodbye ada because as soon as she got raped because of her mothers infedelitys her mother was dead in her eyes and she hated her father already but didnt need to have him dead in her eyes he was already dead.
serenity remained parentless and out into an orphanage
ever snce that incident she didnt know how to love she didnt no what it meant and how to hold it.she was fucked up in her head she was confused on life and she didnt trust no one, SHE TURNED HEARTLESS.